I was thinking the other day about blogging and the perceptions gained by people who read those blogs, then not wanting to create a false impression of myself for people to think I live an idyllic life, not to say that I'm not happy with my lot - but there are times when it's so far from perfect.
I think it's important to be honest with people and yourself about you, your day to day and what goes into making your life what it is and with that in mind, I'd like to break the following down for you:
♥ I work an extremely emotionally draining job, there are days when I hear stuff that I feel in no way trained to deal with that really tests your resolve as a human being, but really - I wouldn't give my job up.
♥ I was up to my eyeballs in debt from years of silly decisions and an inability to budget. But, this time next year, I will be 100% debt free! You can be too! ASK ME HOW! (Sacrifice and little to no social life).
♥ I'm an anal control freak and love things organised and clean, but I can hardly ever be bothered to clean. I might do a BIG CLEAN once a month or so, but then chaos resumes because I complain I have no storage space for all our crap.
♥ I am petrified of the thought of my Dad dying that, at times, it's become debilitating and I fixate on it. My Dad had his first stroke when I was 15, and his first heart attack when I was 16 - the last 10 years have been scattered with hospital appointments, X-rays and health scares. When he goes, I'll be catatonic.
♥ I have a long dark history of Depression & Anxiety. I spent months in bed, I wouldn't go out and talk to anyone. I went to see a counsellor and a psychiatrist who were about as useful to me as a sponge. I thank my Mum for getting me through and showing me that I have things to be positive about, that being said - things are still a struggle at times!
♥ I have some how managed to inherit my mum's frizzy hair and my dad's varicose veins. I'm winning the DNA lottery right now you guys!
I think that's enough truth for right now but I want whoever reads this to know, no one is perfect. People have the same worries and concerns about you - family, friends, money, health and jobs! We edit the details of our life for Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr etc and present you with what we'd like you to see, but if I told you about how I fill the hours of my day between 9am - 5pm, you'd be extremely bored! Of course I only want to show you about the good bits, the bad bits would include how I get annoyed at finding random bits of fluff on my carpet and I don't know where they come from, or how I can't get the walls of my bathroom to be crystal white despite trying 3 different brands of bathroom cleaner!